im talking bout my self in this thing so read or dont idc it may be long its sadish and maybe angry idk yet








yes i will be rambling cuz i rly dont know how or were to start .......
-jornals equivalent of plot bunny hits head-
ow damn it ok um talking bout my self welll as most of you kno im very childish well i think i can exslpane thatone. i act like a kid now because i could when i was one. when i was little i had no realy friends i only play games by my self. sure i had neighbor kids but none my age so i was pretty much on my own. i was told to grow up alot and i did for that time. at 6 my fav channels were food history and animal(discory what ever it was back then ...or both idrember) then toonami came around so i had that to go back to stuff kid my age would watch( befor that it was wb and abc family on weekends lol) so i was talking to kids at school more but still no real friends. so it toke untill middle school to have a friend a real one. so i finaly got to spen the night at someones house and viseversa and i gotto go to a birthday party for the first time (this is the 8th grade btw) and i got to has a friend over for my bday. then i moved >< well i met kids at a new school made some new friends and only keep one old one -head desk- well to make up for it my mom finaly let me have a birth day party with my friends (none of wich i rly talk to anymore one of wich i cant even call a friend anymore-smacks emo thoughs away- any way back to the point i finaly get to be myself kinda im still holding back alot im a very shy person belive it or not i am. i also have an odd mindset i was raised by my great grand parnts more or less so two ppl out of the early 1900's(1918 and 1922 i think) so yea i think differnt then most my age. im very curios. i cant spell its genetic i swear -_-; i hate being lied to most ppl hate it to but everybody lies (or so ive learnd)(PROVE ME WRONG I DARE U)because of my past i cant trust ppl. i heard "you can trust me, you wont ever lose me, ill alway be there for you" far to many time from ppl who use it against me or arnt my friends anymore to belive it anymore. um i bite things alot idk y but it make me happy sry.so yes that it part of who i am acept it or gtfo. bye